No Expectations

Let’s face it, things will always go wrong so let’s take this **** and move along
Low for 2 weeks and a phone call changes it all, but really what does it mean? (I don’t know)
Your world has turned upside down in a split second, mine for the best, and yours for the worst.
Now all we can do is move forward and pick up the pieces.

No expectations, blood to blood on the road to nowhere
Feelings are all we have, we care for nothing else
No matter what happens this is who we are
Forever united linked by events of pure history

Current Mood: hopeful

Letters to you


You can look perfect and feel empty inside I'll keep myself alive to save your sweet heart from turning black, just like mine. That's the last bit of hope that I have, That's my only reason for life Cause without you there's nothing here for me, only hate and fear, cruelty and tears I'm sorry for leaving you in this misery Know that I love you more than anything life is only deceiving from start to beginning And all the lies will leave you empty, without hope for anything else that a fantasy. That’s what you do to me.

I’ve got a lot to say but sometimes my brain just freezes.

I feel like I’ve been let down again and it’s the worst feeling in the world, my life has no purpose anymore. My friends are 3 hours away and it feels like the end of the world right now.

The only thing I can do is try to distract my mind from thinking about it and to think of you sometimes helps, but sometimes it just feels worst cause I know you feel like shit to and I can’t do anything.

How do you balance family, friends and work? I think I just need to let go of everything for a moment and just breathe. This is how life is if you’re a 21 years old girl in this town.

It’s been 2 week of hell; I need to enjoy life for god’s sake! I need live my life ( so cliché ) I’m at a time in my life were I need to make a change I need to wake up and do the things I want to do… I taught I did that but seems like I didn’t. What is it that I want so much? Yeah to fill up this hole in my heart.

I’ve realized that I haven’t been happy in awhile, but when I was listening to Sam Robert’s concert then I felt good inside. What does that mean? I feel like writing this amounts to nothing but a grammar lesson…

Do I feel better? I still miss you.

Welcome to the unreal world of the Internet

(what should I get myself for christmax, an Ipod, a Nikon camera, a new laptop or a bass and an amp??? help please!)

Current Mood: depressed